"The Pill"

by mamie

I have been on the off and on "The Pill (but a lot more on) for the last 20 years. I love "The Pill." I know for a fact that there were several instances where "The Pill" saved my life. I have tried many variations of "The Pill." I have experienced tons of side-effects, both the expected and the bizarre. I have been pregnant 4 times, and have had 3 children on "The Pill." My husband has been on and off "The Pill" as well. Whoa....what? Well, so I am not talking about birth control (although with some of the side-effects, I may as well call it that.) I am talking about nearly every anti-depressant ever produced. And now....I am 3 weeks pill free. Ready for my little white key-chain. My life feels very different without my nightly dose of Cymbalta. It's scary. But I like this kind of scared. I am at the right place to do this. I don't want to be ambivalent about things anymore. I need to feel. I am steady enough to do this at this time. Now, I would never advocate just going off without seeing a doctor first. And I am VERY thankful for anti-depressants. They have helped me through awful tunnels. And if I need them again, I will promptly go and get what I need. But so far, I am enjoying my techni-color world. I am enjoying the energy to follow through with things. And walking is a hell of a lot cheaper than Cymbalta. ( which was averaging $180.00 monthly since we lost our insurance. )

So here's to "The Pill!" I am happily replacing the groggy side-effects with the blisters and sore feet side-effects of walking. But I am grateful it got me to this place. Without it, I may not have made it this far.